Last night on the way home from work I thought about everything I’d been considering over the past few weeks, my faith being one of them. I realized that I had not prayed in a very long time and I hadn’t asked for the lord or anything from him in many years. A few weeks ago I’d bought a bible. Two days ago, I opened my bible and started reading it.
The past few weeks have been trying. Work, money, school, pressure to find a full time job after graduation in May, weighing options on whether or not I can financially continue my passion of horses, family, and sometimes I don’t see my relationship for what it is and I don’t live in the moment. Instead I worry and wonder about what is coming next. (I love you, Chad, for loving me anyway.)
So tonight I prayed. I asked for many things and in the end I thanked God for everything that He had given me that I had either overlooked or not thought about in the ways I should have- as blessings. And I prayed for 10 minutes, out loud, in my car. And after, I thought about that I had just done.
Whether it’s true to you or not, whether it’s scientific or not, the idea that someone, somewhere is listening to me and blessing me, just really brought something powerful out in me. Tears welled up in my eyes and I got an overwhelming feeling that everything was going to be okay. Like my heart was full. It was immediate and I got an immense feeling of peace.
If you don’t pray, I’d recommend trying it. If you haven’t picked up a bible, I’d recommend trying it.
Off my soapbox.
Amen.
xo- me
Your post brought a smile to my face :) so honest and open. Made me think of this verse: Proverbs 16:9 "In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps."
ReplyDeleteWhen I really started reading the Bible I felt so lost, but I was encouraged to read one chapter of Proverbs each day (there are 31 chapters, and at most 31 days in a month...so read the chapter of the day of the month [April 6 = Proverbs 6 etc]). It helped me have a little more direction and prevented me from getting overwhelmed :)
Thanks for sharing!